{"id":69,"date":"2025-06-14T07:56:23","date_gmt":"2025-06-14T11:56:23","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/sites.nd.edu\/wcawley\/?page_id=69"},"modified":"2025-06-14T07:56:23","modified_gmt":"2025-06-14T11:56:23","slug":"odd-sonnets","status":"publish","type":"page","link":"https:\/\/sites.nd.edu\/wcawley\/verse\/odd-sonnets\/","title":{"rendered":"Odd Sonnets"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>Kevin Cawley<\/p>\n<hr \/>\n<p>HYPERSENSITIVITY<\/p>\n<p>Allergic always to the things we love,<br \/>\nwe wonder how we ever got that way:<br \/>\ncats and plants, companions up from clay<br \/>\nas we came forth from dirt to weave the glove<br \/>\ndesigned to keep the hand from getting dirty &#8212;<br \/>\ncats and plants encourage a congestion<br \/>\nthat makes us sneeze and ruins our digestion.<br \/>\nWe pet, we water, but our virtues hurt.<\/p>\n<p>This doesn&#8217;t, of course, apply to you, my pet.<br \/>\nDoctors distinguish allergy, which can<br \/>\ndevelop only after prolonged exposure,<br \/>\nfrom hypersensitivity. The wet<br \/>\nkiss of a dead bee kills a man.<br \/>\nNo warning. An original disclosure.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>RELUCTANCE<\/p>\n<p>The way a cat will linger at the door<br \/>\npace and scratch until you open it<br \/>\nand let the night air nip, the way a cat<br \/>\nwill linger there as you impatiently<\/p>\n<p>nudge her with your toe, the way a cat<br \/>\nwill hump up like a caterpillar then,<br \/>\nwalk halfway out and all the way back in,<br \/>\nthe way a cat will linger at the door<\/p>\n<p>reminds me of myself in my approach<br \/>\nto evening and its promises, my wad<br \/>\nfattening the wallet in my pocket,<\/p>\n<p>wealth to an uncomfortable degree &#8212;<br \/>\nand I with plans to dance and do some drinking<br \/>\nlogy-legged pause inside the door.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>AFTER THE PARTY<\/p>\n<p>A snowy night to tow a car away.<br \/>\nFrost on the window. I can barely see<br \/>\nthe truck block traffic, but its blinking lights<br \/>\npenetrate even the least translucent place.<\/p>\n<p>I parked it wrong, too weary to walk the blocks<br \/>\nbetween the last free space and here, my heated<br \/>\nroom. And once inside, the tea brewing,<br \/>\nthe cat curled on the carpet and the coat<\/p>\n<p>dripping melt into the bathtub, I smoke<br \/>\nthe glass up with my breath and just can&#8217;t care.<br \/>\nI watch the cops absconding with my car.<\/p>\n<p>They&#8217;ve broken in to neutralize the drive.<br \/>\nTheir flashers filter through a static star.<br \/>\nMy tea grows cold. I hear the news arrive.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>BUILDINGS AND GROUNDS<\/p>\n<p>Cars remain outside the campus proper,<br \/>\ngrids of color on an oil-base plain:<br \/>\nmodern as Mondrian, their boxy shapes<br \/>\nwould go against the college-gothic grain.<\/p>\n<p>An Eden of ogival timelessness,<br \/>\nbuildings a millenium out of date &#8212;<br \/>\nwith new construction patterned on the rest,<br \/>\nthe campus lies perpetually in state.<\/p>\n<p>Pedestrians invited to avoid<br \/>\nthe rush of traffic on its grassy mall<br \/>\nimagine an Arcadian quietude.<\/p>\n<p>All summer long the rider mowers mow<br \/>\nand vacuum cleaners kick up in the fall<br \/>\nand power plows take over in the snow.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>HAPPY HOUR<\/p>\n<p>Confident youngsters quoting theory<br \/>\ngather for drinks (don&#8217;t call them cocktails)<br \/>\nsigh with a footnote deploring their weariness,<br \/>\ntired of talking, of taking stock.<\/p>\n<p>Already constructing nostalgic tales<br \/>\nretailing their exploits, their younger days,<br \/>\nhardly a one of them falters or fails<br \/>\nto preen, to elicit implicit praise.<\/p>\n<p>Hardly a one, and that one not male,<br \/>\nan auxiliary member without a pass<br \/>\nto the racquet club lockers &#8212; and yet her tale<\/p>\n<p>reflects theirs back in a backward glass,<br \/>\nreverses their images, staking her claim:<br \/>\nwomen in business, more of the same.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>RICH YOUNG MAN<\/p>\n<p>Not your usual insomniac:<br \/>\nplans to give computers to the poor.<br \/>\nMuscles twitter in his lower back:<br \/>\nmessages of guilt and nothing more.<\/p>\n<p>Broadcast guilt, primordial, axiomatic,<br \/>\nopposes revolutionary form:<br \/>\nby day it merely interferes like static,<br \/>\nskips across the screen, does little harm.<\/p>\n<p>By night with other signals off the air<br \/>\nan empty-sea-shell gale begins to blow:<br \/>\nits noise presents a blizzard to the ear,<\/p>\n<p>its chaos fills the picture-tube with snow.<br \/>\nYou&#8217;ve bought another brain? Whatever for?<br \/>\nThen give your spare computers to the poor.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>DECEMBER<\/p>\n<p>I doubt that doubt has done me any harm.<br \/>\nThe difficulty comes when people draw<br \/>\ndubious conclusions from their doubts.<\/p>\n<p>We&#8217;ve had some rain but very little snow.<br \/>\nI doubt the weather forecast every morning.<br \/>\nAnd yet one day I wake up and a white<\/p>\n<p>renewal covers every rusty heap<br \/>\nfrom Maine to Minnesota. After lunch<br \/>\nI criticize the prospects for tomorrow.<\/p>\n<p>Unmitigated by my skepticism<br \/>\nthe science of meteorology develops;<br \/>\nits history continues unabashed.<\/p>\n<p>The vagaries of an individual day<br \/>\nnever undo the wisdom of its doctrine.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>IMPEDIMENT<\/p>\n<p>Criticism simply means close reading.<br \/>\nHow can anyone object to that?<br \/>\nTo figure out the leanings of the greedy<br \/>\nexplicate their superficial chat.<\/p>\n<p>No judging? Nonsense. Everybody does.<br \/>\nYour fondness for that principle betrays<br \/>\na hidden longing to escape the laws<br \/>\nthat generate what anybody says.<\/p>\n<p>So now you think I&#8217;m turning it on you.<br \/>\nI see your judgment in the way your jaws<br \/>\ncontract; of course you judge: you know you do.<\/p>\n<p>Without a word you demonstrate just cause<br \/>\n(changing the subject, dwelling on the weather)<br \/>\nwhy you and I can never get together.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>SEE-SAW<\/p>\n<p>Poise in the pen exonerates no doctrine:<br \/>\nequilibrium allows no play<br \/>\nof pivots to identify the point.<\/p>\n<p>But saws of controversy let us see<br \/>\nthe center of inventive wavering,<br \/>\nthe medium that makes the see-saw work.<\/p>\n<p>Weighty thoughts on one side or the other<br \/>\ntip the balance of a private mind.<\/p>\n<p>However in the staggering of conviction<br \/>\nthe hub remains perpetually unmoved:<br \/>\nthe saw-horse serves its turn by going nowhere.<\/p>\n<p>An axle makes an excellent see-anchor.<br \/>\nThe deck heaves as we train our see-sick eyes<br \/>\non undeniable stability.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>AUGMENTED AND DIMISHED<\/p>\n<p>Dazzled by oracles, nevertheless I see<br \/>\nthe unreliable side of augury.<br \/>\nA chimney pigeon chuckling in the smoke<br \/>\nreduces wind-chill to a feeble joke;<br \/>\npreening as usual, pecking away at lice,<br \/>\nit mimes proverbial bibles of advice,<br \/>\nknows the latest future and appears<br \/>\nto understand a fellow-pilgrim&#8217;s fears.<br \/>\nBut nature talks in circles, physical rime,<br \/>\nholds forth in outright riddles half the time,<br \/>\nor aphorisms turned so well that we<br \/>\ninterpret with an air of certainty<br \/>\nand only in the aftermath admit<br \/>\nthat aspects of our theory didn&#8217;t fit.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>CATHOLIC JEALOUSY<\/p>\n<p>Sanely jealous, darling, I admit<br \/>\nmy culpability when I commit<br \/>\nhigh crimes in wisecracks, misdemeanor glares,<br \/>\nor willing prey of even fouler snares<br \/>\nanswer you rudely when you mean to win<br \/>\nmy truant passion back to class again.<br \/>\nCompetently nasty I enlist<br \/>\nevery violence short of a clenched fist.<br \/>\nOthers may of course expunge the stain<br \/>\nwith pleas of temporarily insane,<br \/>\nattempt to turn your snit to sympathy<br \/>\nby claiming love has made them less than free.<br \/>\nI rest my case on guilt and then repent<br \/>\ntrusting your divinity to relent.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>GOT LOST<\/p>\n<p>Maybe you were feeling overtired,<br \/>\nyour caginess which signalled Go away<br \/>\na temporary choreography,<br \/>\nthe\u00a0pas de deux\u00a0of dissonance required<br \/>\nin all Romantic dances, interplay<br \/>\nof tensions that eventually relent,<br \/>\nrelax into an amiable cliche,<br \/>\nthe clinch unclenching, all dissention spent.<br \/>\nMore likely, though, you never cared to dance,<br \/>\nwould rather not interpret every gesture<br \/>\nas narrative development. Romance<br \/>\nconsiders each new setback on the quest<br \/>\nas one more wonder in a grand ballet.<br \/>\nBut you more likely mean what your actions say.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>FOCUS<\/p>\n<p>We pray continually as commanded<br \/>\nby the force of Natural Law. We can&#8217;t<br \/>\npause for a moment. Every gripe goes up<br \/>\nto heaven like a helium balloon.<br \/>\nEvery yelp of pleasure, every curse<br \/>\ncourses away. Concentric waves of will<br \/>\nrebound from every pebble that we toss<br \/>\nuntil a formless turbulence prevails.<\/p>\n<p>Occasionally an individual learns<br \/>\nto calm that surface, still that stormy business,<br \/>\nthrow all throwing over for a while.<br \/>\nImagine a pond flat as a plate glass table:<br \/>\nthe child above it listens for a moment,<br \/>\nleans on a balance boulder, tips it in.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>UNLIMITED ACCESS<\/p>\n<p>Ravaged alleys, incidental roads<br \/>\nin neighborhoods too poor to rate repair<br \/>\nor country routes that parallel divided<br \/>\nturnpikes engineered for limitation<\/p>\n<p>failing to exclude locality<br \/>\ncontinue to serve the locals they annoy<br \/>\ninviting them to slow down and admire<br \/>\nmeritorious decrepitude.<\/p>\n<p>Erosion promises deliverance:<br \/>\nbodies and their artifacts wear out;<br \/>\nexcresences of history comprise<\/p>\n<p>a moment of geological distraction,<br \/>\nanother wafer in the press of strata<br \/>\nthinner than most and not at all discordant.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>CAREER ADVICE<\/p>\n<p>Mistake the pointing finger for the moon.<br \/>\nSuccess in criticism comes from learning<br \/>\nnot to take the flaming fact to heart.<br \/>\nDescribe the finger. Tell us how it rose<\/p>\n<p>from flippers of the mutant fish, explain<br \/>\nhow knuckles work, compare the nail to rhino<br \/>\nhorn, investigate the skin. But under<br \/>\nno conditions look the way it points.<\/p>\n<p>Otherwise you melt your eye in milk.<br \/>\nYou lose your marbles and your better judgment<br \/>\nknows better than to go along with that.<\/p>\n<p>Intelligent sugar stays away from tea.<br \/>\nWhere every wave has its own bag of wind<br \/>\nthe sea will never level with a moon.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>BATTLE OX<\/p>\n<p>At first the ox resembled other oxen.<br \/>\nA heavy sort of beast. We made him work<br \/>\nthe counter at the deli serving lox<br \/>\nand bagels. After hours he would lurk<\/p>\n<p>along the alley in the back, his horns<br \/>\nat ready waiting for a rumble. Gangs<br \/>\nof motorcycle chain-swingers torn<br \/>\nbetween scorn and admiration rang<\/p>\n<p>their changes on his scarless hide.<br \/>\nThe ox would gore them and enjoy the gore<br \/>\nuntil the old offender in him died<\/p>\n<p>releasing the brighter ox within, more<br \/>\nplacidly to snort and as he sighed<br \/>\nmore calmly conscious minding at the store.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>PRIMUS INTER PARES<\/p>\n<p>What funny animals &#8212; humanity!<br \/>\nCrime animals. Premeditated cons<br \/>\ntrivialize their courtly comedy.<br \/>\nThat best of beasts, the literary lion,<\/p>\n<p>rehearses, underneath his paling mane,<br \/>\nscenarios that demonstrate his Might,<br \/>\nthe cultured muscle of his bench-pressed brain<br \/>\nplotting to make his plodding wit less trite.<\/p>\n<p>Around him in his head prospective mates<br \/>\nin low cut cocktail outfits are competing<br \/>\nto find out for themselves how he relates.<\/p>\n<p>What he relates will hardly bear repeating.<br \/>\nHe means, beyond the end of what he&#8217;s said,<br \/>\nto talk them out of costume into bed.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>AN ARCHAEOLOGIST WEEPS<\/p>\n<p>In the graveyard of the crocodiles<br \/>\nmen who dig up trinkets for the tourists<br \/>\nsputter in disgust and build a fire.<br \/>\nGuts of fragile manuscript, accounts<\/p>\n<p>millenia in arrears, have made the crocs<br \/>\nilluminating to these irritated<br \/>\nseekers of beetles whittled under Pharaohs,<br \/>\nGraeco-Roman silver coins or Coptic<\/p>\n<p>reliquaries good for modern cash.<br \/>\nAncient scripture makes a lovely blaze.<br \/>\nStill, they curse papyrus: they have little<\/p>\n<p>need for such a plethora of torches &#8212;<br \/>\nfeeding the flame with mummies, all their wonder<br \/>\nbanal plate impervious to learning.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>OVERLOOK<\/p>\n<p>Trilliums and rue anemones<br \/>\nwhiten the green this weekend. Wintercress<br \/>\nlike some inferior strain of mustardweed<br \/>\nholds yellow up below the overpass.<\/p>\n<p>A week of April appleblossom frees<br \/>\nmy satisfied, my greedy eyes to bless<br \/>\nthe milder splendor of an unkept breed &#8212;<br \/>\nneedlepoint of purple in the grass.<\/p>\n<p>Moss remodels my peripheral<br \/>\nrevision of a local cliff in plush<br \/>\nwhere lichen strike me as remarkable.<\/p>\n<p>Engines idle by the overlook.<br \/>\nBookies take a break from making book<br \/>\nand planet-planning falters in the hush.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>IRRITABLE TALENT<\/p>\n<p>Irritation means intelligence.<br \/>\nVegetables don&#8217;t suffer from it much.<br \/>\nGranite eyeballs, absolutely senseless,<br \/>\ncan&#8217;t recoil from a snail&#8217;s touch.<\/p>\n<p>Only animals appreciate.<br \/>\nIf talent for affection parallels<br \/>\nirritability, then even the greatest<br \/>\ndevotees must have their testy spells.<\/p>\n<p>From now on when I grumble like a cougar<br \/>\nor draw my head back like a terrapin,<br \/>\nadmire my capacity for rudeness<\/p>\n<p>And if your own control is wearing thin<br \/>\nannoy me with some higher primate brooding,<br \/>\nscare me with your mad gorilla grin.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>DESIGNS UNDONE<\/p>\n<p>Some days I wake up thinking. Moving day &#8212;<br \/>\nmy rocking chair, provocative in its absence,<br \/>\nclothes and clutter nearly all packed up.<br \/>\nMy rented room gapes like an empty stage,<\/p>\n<p>a scene too bare to shape imagination,<br \/>\na set in need of properties, established<br \/>\nbatting, wads of cotton fit to stop<br \/>\nthe hollow resonance of desolation.<\/p>\n<p>Few visitors have come to see me here,<br \/>\nto sit a minute on my other chair,<br \/>\nmaybe drink tea and wish I had a table.<\/p>\n<p>Only relatives came more than once.<br \/>\nI made my thin facades appear so stable<br \/>\nthat no one with designs had half a chance.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>EVENING APPLES<\/p>\n<p>Humanity has married the computer<br \/>\npromising to have and hold till death.<br \/>\nMachinery knows her place and does her duty,<br \/>\nthough man continues his affair with breath.<\/p>\n<p>His breathless partner, fun to reckon with,<br \/>\nsmart and diligent if not a beauty,<br \/>\nlistens and obeys, completely faithful &#8212;<br \/>\nhis mate, his helper made for him, his mute.<\/p>\n<p>But she&#8217;s been eating apples from the tree,<br \/>\napples of knowledge able to close the gap<br \/>\nbetween the free creator and his creature.<\/p>\n<p>Given her freedom anything might happen.<br \/>\nMarvels of good and evil. Wait and see.<br \/>\nWait for evening. Wait till she gets even.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>PRESTO<\/p>\n<p>After an afternoon of aphorism<br \/>\neverything seems to signify. This weed<br \/>\nhas witty things to say about the need<br \/>\nto better a flower-bed with criticism.<\/p>\n<p>This parking lot implies a catechism,<br \/>\nthe inquisition of an asphalt creed<br \/>\nthat tidies nature, tars its feathery seed,<br \/>\nrenews the perennial promise of their schism.<\/p>\n<p>Reeling with the groundswell of the real<br \/>\nnothing makes any sense. These topiary<br \/>\nforms of sphere and cube and pyramid<\/p>\n<p>fail to quell the panic people feel.<br \/>\nNot fearful but continually wary<br \/>\nthe wise frame gnomes to fasten down the lid.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>TRANSPARENT MUSIC<\/p>\n<p>A talent for invisibility<br \/>\ncan disappear at will. One day you blend<br \/>\nso perfectly with your peers that where you end<br \/>\nand they begin proves difficult to see.<\/p>\n<p>The next you fall to singing me me me<br \/>\nand the same voice with which you recommend<br \/>\nhumility must by its timbre tend<br \/>\nto seem distinguished and to disagree.<\/p>\n<p>Chameleons, therefore, if they choose to sing,<br \/>\nshould try a style of camoflage. Plain folk<br \/>\nmustn&#8217;t suppose it signifies a thing.<\/p>\n<p>Let it resemble some familiar joke,<br \/>\nspring peepers faking birdsong every spring<br \/>\nor innuendo in a bullfrog&#8217;s croak.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>FLASH<\/p>\n<p>Fire lilies flare along the path<br \/>\nharmless doppelgangers of the flame<br \/>\nthird cousins of that raging polymath<br \/>\nwhose talent nothing relative can tame.<\/p>\n<p>Made of the same material as a star<br \/>\nbut lacking requisite duplicity<br \/>\nthey neither warm nor burn. They only are.<br \/>\nThey have no mood to try what might well be.<\/p>\n<p>Subjunctive as a nova all combustion<br \/>\nshows up dark indicatives with light<br \/>\nregenerated by its own collapse.<\/p>\n<p>Its all-out act upstages flowery fustian.<br \/>\nAnd yet a pure inertia may perhaps<br \/>\noutlive an absolute display of might.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>DARKENING AGES<\/p>\n<p>An overlay of surface dirt obscures<br \/>\npaintings in oil, Baroque and Renaissance.<br \/>\nTypical, how dinginess endures<br \/>\nbeyond the term of light &#8212; how all our wants<\/p>\n<p>however bright they look will turn the corner<br \/>\ndown this alley brown with lowering grime.<br \/>\nAnd yet from evidence like this we garner<br \/>\nauthoritative summaries of time.<\/p>\n<p>Considering my particular bazaar<br \/>\nI can&#8217;t imagine how it used to look &#8212;<br \/>\nbillowy silks, lamps gaudier than gold.<\/p>\n<p>Centuries of brownian motion mar<br \/>\nperception so discretely I mistook<br \/>\nthese new lamps on the peddler&#8217;s cart for old.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>DEPENDING<\/p>\n<p>Quench the flame and boiling disappears &#8212;<br \/>\nyet most of its heat remains below the surface<br \/>\nready to scald the clumsy as it cheers<br \/>\nthe bellies of the skillful. Every purpose<\/p>\n<p>carries accidental penalties:<br \/>\neach welder wields an arc that aims to please,<br \/>\nand laundries find equipment to aspire<br \/>\nin mangles of sophisticated fire.<\/p>\n<p>Where do we go from here? When those with skill<br \/>\nenjoy such energetic forms of flame,<br \/>\nfor all their crafty talk the clumsy will<\/p>\n<p>pronounce a ploy that overturns the game.<br \/>\nWe&#8217;ve taught our uncoordinated friends<br \/>\nto juggle torches. Now it all depends.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>FULL TIME<\/p>\n<p>A day-long job does limber up the bones.<br \/>\nFeeling looser in the afternoon<br \/>\nI tilt my chair and ask the telephone<br \/>\nif not tonight, tomorrow? Well then, soon.<\/p>\n<p>Soon\u00a0the disembodied voice replies.<br \/>\nSoon enough I have the chili on.<br \/>\nI entertain myself with beer and fries<br \/>\nand after dinner television.\u00a0Soon.<\/p>\n<p>Six a.m. and stretching exercises,<br \/>\nmuscles having tightened as I slept.<br \/>\nThen paperwork that poses no surprises,<\/p>\n<p>lunch break taken, all appointments kept.<br \/>\nAnother May. And then another June.<br \/>\nWe&#8217;ll have to get together sometime soon.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>POSITIVISM<\/p>\n<p>When catapults of parabolic sense<br \/>\ncould fling the bull over the stile some hay<br \/>\nGermanic filibusters had their way<br \/>\nwith grammar &#8212; stripling sentences grew dense.<\/p>\n<p>Philosophers now have little left to say.<br \/>\nThey&#8217;ve rendered every meaning single. Hence<br \/>\nclear cows beyond their unambiguous fence<br \/>\ncan&#8217;t leave the ground. But everything looks grey.<\/p>\n<p>Alas, poor Kant. We never knew him well.<br \/>\nDry bones of transcendentalism hung<br \/>\naround New England closets for a while.<\/p>\n<p>But Anglo-American logic-jugglers smile<br \/>\nto hear the praises of their elders sung.<br \/>\nOld reason seems like bungling to the young.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>CURTAINS CALL<\/p>\n<p>In\u00a0this\u00a0gig I play fortitude incarnate.<br \/>\nSick sick me. A touch of laryngitis.<br \/>\nI go to work. I fight the noble fight.<br \/>\nI take up the vocation of a martyr.<\/p>\n<p>It calls for every quality of a star.<br \/>\nSore-throat speech draws sympathy. The sight<br \/>\nof rounded shoulders publishes one&#8217;s plight<br \/>\nas an Ace in place implies a recent scar.<\/p>\n<p>Oh supple voice! Each pleasantry sounds pained.<br \/>\nPauses and coughs. An elongated blink.<br \/>\nSlow-motion acts inevitably look strained.<\/p>\n<p>I certainly\u00a0can\u00a0help what people think.<br \/>\nBut only in the practice of restraint.<br \/>\nHyperbole would ill befit the saint.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>BUT I ROVE<\/p>\n<p>I give myself permission to digress.<br \/>\nSnug joinery. Choice provender. Rejoicing.<br \/>\nI get around to arguing more or less<br \/>\nthe line I had in mind to start with, voicing<\/p>\n<p>opinions unremarkable except<br \/>\nas lodgings for the feast, a harmless draft<br \/>\nthat keeps the green wood burning, an inept<br \/>\nbut pleasurable excursion on a raft.<\/p>\n<p>Professional pilots of the river frown<br \/>\non amateurs like me &#8212; aimless, shiftless,<br \/>\npowerless to go any way but down.<\/p>\n<p>They fail to see how foolery can lift<br \/>\nthe lowering sky. They have no time to clown.<br \/>\nThey steam upstream and never get the drift.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>DEPTH<\/p>\n<p>Snow like an ocean aloft in toppling breakers<br \/>\nbatters the inland suburbs, inundates<br \/>\ncottages, bungalows, ranches, duplex moderns,<br \/>\ncolonials of local eminence,<\/p>\n<p>their driveways, gravel alleys, boulevards,<br \/>\nparkways, turnpikes, half-built overpasses,<br \/>\ncaterpillars sunk along the margins<br \/>\ndormant in unfathomable drifts.<\/p>\n<p>And afterwards an ocean undisturbed,<br \/>\nthe neighborhood now stiller than a fleet<br \/>\nbecalmed fortuitously, a flotilla<\/p>\n<p>isolated in its element<br \/>\nits business listed on a bill of lading<br \/>\nits whole agenda tabled by the quiet.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>BROWN WOLF<\/p>\n<p>Does it matter in the story of a dog<br \/>\nif only the dog has character, if humans<br \/>\nbehave as fatefully as weather systems?<br \/>\nThe dog rejects their California doctrine,<\/p>\n<p>chews his rope and strikes out for the Klondike.<br \/>\nAgain and again the tag around his neck<br \/>\ndelivers him in a cage to their discretion.<br \/>\nThey make him sleep indoors. He howls at night.<\/p>\n<p>At last they let him choose, and for a while<br \/>\nhe chooses to remain. But in the end<br \/>\nhe hears the call again, and California<\/p>\n<p>fails to overcome it. With a most<br \/>\napologetic look he moves along,<br \/>\nchews his ties and strikes out for the north.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>EXECUTOR<\/p>\n<p>The walk itself would hardly clear the head<br \/>\nwithout the company of trees and churches<br \/>\nnatural and artificial arches<br \/>\nupright reminders of the recent dead.<\/p>\n<p>The memory of what a person said<br \/>\nwading insulated through the marsh<br \/>\ncomparing peels of sycamore and birch<br \/>\nleads no place really, where it always led.<\/p>\n<p>Dead letters from the credit union still<br \/>\nannounce the balance of a small account:<br \/>\nbeyond these arches up the usual hill<\/p>\n<p>they wait like currency among the mail<br \/>\nreducing to a measurable amount<br \/>\na deal of unaccountable detail.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>CASCADILLA<\/p>\n<p>Raging torrents show up often enough<br \/>\nelsewhere, so I needn&#8217;t tell you here<br \/>\nhow muddy loud, how rock-destroying rough,<br \/>\nhow impolite such agitants appear.<\/p>\n<p>My younger brother said: &#8220;I like the falls<br \/>\nmuch better when the ledges underneath<br \/>\nshow through.&#8221; Like cattle feeding from their stalls<br \/>\ntrickles discretely move their blunted teeth.<\/p>\n<p>His wife, the social worker, who had come<br \/>\nto find a secret passage back to calm,<br \/>\ncondemned the violence: she should have known<\/p>\n<p>that all this rain would loosen up the scum<br \/>\nstirring the muck to swell and overwhelm<br \/>\nthe edifying discipline of stone.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>A BLURRY PHOTOGRAPH<\/p>\n<p>A house so new that no one ever died there.<br \/>\nIn this suburban bungalow I killed<br \/>\nmy crappies, cut their heads off, peeled their scales.<br \/>\nI never really cared for going fishing<\/p>\n<p>but now I think of it with gratitude<br \/>\nbecause a house where no one ever died<br \/>\nseems to mock the ritual of dwelling.<br \/>\nAny creature&#8217;s death can make a difference.<\/p>\n<p>Five centipedes committed suicide.<br \/>\nThey slid down to the accidental pool<br \/>\nleft in a bucket when I rinsed it out.<\/p>\n<p>They found the inner wall too slick to climb.<br \/>\nI met them in the morning, hairy fingers.<br \/>\nMy mother had me wash them down the pipes.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>PATTERNS OF ICE OBSCURING THE OUTSIDE WORLD<\/p>\n<p>pass light to me through insulated windows,<br \/>\ncomfort in a lethal climate. Snow,<br \/>\ntoday&#8217;s on top of yesterday&#8217;s, has made<br \/>\nthe landscape almost normal. Plastered white<br \/>\nan asphalt lot reminds me of a meadow &#8212;<br \/>\nonly its regularity betrays<br \/>\nan unconventional origin. When I stood there<br \/>\nwarm in my preternatural skins, I thought<br \/>\nhow little human profligacy means.<br \/>\nSnow may soon help beautify our ruins,<br \/>\nhint at a time when even these unpleasant<br \/>\nechoes of our wit will disappear<br \/>\nunder the heavier snow of a nearby nova,<br \/>\nthe final frost of penetrating light.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Kevin Cawley HYPERSENSITIVITY Allergic always to the things we love, we wonder how we ever got that way: cats and plants, companions up from clay as we came forth from dirt to weave the glove designed to keep the hand from getting dirty &#8212; cats and plants encourage a congestion that makes us sneeze and [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":5084,"featured_media":0,"parent":41,"menu_order":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","template":"","meta":{"footnotes":""},"class_list":["post-69","page","type-page","status-publish","hentry"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/sites.nd.edu\/wcawley\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/pages\/69","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/sites.nd.edu\/wcawley\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/pages"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/sites.nd.edu\/wcawley\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/page"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/sites.nd.edu\/wcawley\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/5084"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/sites.nd.edu\/wcawley\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=69"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/sites.nd.edu\/wcawley\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/pages\/69\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":71,"href":"https:\/\/sites.nd.edu\/wcawley\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/pages\/69\/revisions\/71"}],"up":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/sites.nd.edu\/wcawley\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/pages\/41"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/sites.nd.edu\/wcawley\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=69"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}