{"id":91,"date":"2025-06-14T08:58:13","date_gmt":"2025-06-14T12:58:13","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/sites.nd.edu\/wcawley\/?page_id=91"},"modified":"2025-06-14T08:59:58","modified_gmt":"2025-06-14T12:59:58","slug":"marians-diary","status":"publish","type":"page","link":"https:\/\/sites.nd.edu\/wcawley\/verse\/marians-diary\/","title":{"rendered":"Marian&#8217;s Diary"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>Kevin Cawley<\/p>\n<hr \/>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>1<br \/>\nAdultery, a cult of knights<br \/>\nwho championed the trampled rights<br \/>\nof women stuck with simple men,<br \/>\nenunciated once again<br \/>\nits awesome old philosophy:<br \/>\nLove pardons all. So harden me.<br \/>\nMaid Marian embarrassed boys<br \/>\nwho courted her with mortal joys,<br \/>\nwho planned to make romantic books<br \/>\ncome true with their intrusive looks.<br \/>\nTheir practiced gestures waxing wild<br \/>\nmade Marian more wary. Mild<br \/>\nyet mistress of a vicious wit,<br \/>\nshe made them test the blade of it.<br \/>\nHer orthodoxy soared above<br \/>\npedestrians requesting love<br \/>\naccording to some formula,<br \/>\nsome passionate anathema.<br \/>\nShe&#8217;d lose them with her Q.E.D.;<br \/>\nshe&#8217;d take their hands and make them see.<\/p>\n<p>2<br \/>\nBut one, the Earl of Huntington,<br \/>\nhad answered all her banter, done it<br \/>\nnicely with no trace of spite.<br \/>\nRegardless of how hard she&#8217;d bite,<br \/>\nhe sent his argument along<br \/>\npolitely, sifting right from wrong.<br \/>\nThe phony trope, erroneous<br \/>\nconclusion or unruly fuss,<br \/>\nthe battering of rhetoric,<br \/>\nthe softer philosophic trick<br \/>\nall challenged him, and balancing<br \/>\nideal design and real thing<br \/>\nhe routed them repeatedly.<br \/>\nShe couldn&#8217;t consent, wouldn&#8217;t agree<br \/>\nwith every point a clever boy<br \/>\nmight put her, but she could enjoy<br \/>\nthe magic of his logical<br \/>\nproduction &#8212; ineluctable<br \/>\nbut ultimately tolerant,<br \/>\nno martyrdom by argument.<\/p>\n<p>3<br \/>\nWhen Marian practiced archery<br \/>\nin general the men would flee.<br \/>\nThey&#8217;d heard the jokes, absurd accounts<br \/>\nof each prospective teacher pouncing<br \/>\non the opportunity,<br \/>\nthe thrill of possibility,<br \/>\ndismayed to find the lady&#8217;s aim<br \/>\nbetter than theirs. She&#8217;d hit the same<br \/>\nsmall mark from twice as far away.<br \/>\nA chuckle. &#8220;What good luck,&#8221; she&#8217;d say.<br \/>\nBut Huntington, not one to shrink<br \/>\nfrom jokes or care what jokers think,<br \/>\ninvited\u00a0her\u00a0to tutor\u00a0him.<br \/>\nBeginning with an interim<br \/>\nof weeks between their meetings, she<br \/>\nagreed that they would need to meet<br \/>\nmore frequently. And he suggested<br \/>\n&#8220;Daily lessons may be best.&#8221;<br \/>\nA pair of scholars. Marian should<br \/>\nprobably call him Robin. Good.<\/p>\n<p>4<br \/>\nWilling to use familiar names,<br \/>\nRobin and Marian, able to aim<br \/>\ntwo arrows at some narrow post<br \/>\nand vary by a hair at most,<br \/>\ntogether in one another&#8217;s thought,<br \/>\nthe teacher and the creature taught,<br \/>\nthey went all winter, spent all spring<br \/>\nand summer on the same old thing.<br \/>\nTarget practice. Arguing.<br \/>\nWhen autumn came he bought a ring<br \/>\nand after tea one afternoon<br \/>\nproduced it &#8212; all too soon, too soon.<br \/>\n&#8220;You&#8217;re joking,&#8221; she said. &#8220;You&#8217;re mocking me.&#8221;<br \/>\nIn looking for his equal he<br \/>\nhad never thought how every male<br \/>\nhe knew preferred his beauty frail,<br \/>\nhad not imagined what it meant<br \/>\nto beauties when their suitors went<br \/>\naway to marry safer wives &#8212;<br \/>\nthe failure of their daily lives.<\/p>\n<p>5<br \/>\nThe church that had the virtue of<br \/>\na summer cool she came to love<br \/>\nin autumn somehow caught a cold<br \/>\nthat weighed her down and made her old.<br \/>\nShe sat and thought her future up.<br \/>\nShe&#8217;d join a convent, interrupt<br \/>\nthe sermons of determined friends<br \/>\nwho burdened her with worldly ends,<br \/>\nadvice on acting nice and sweet,<br \/>\nto handle every man you meet<br \/>\nwith cataleptic flattery,<br \/>\nto catch the point of lechery<br \/>\nas if it were uplifting wit<br \/>\nand titter when he mutters\u00a0shit.<br \/>\nShe&#8217;d interrupt their endless bragging,<br \/>\nsimpering and dimpled nagging,<br \/>\nbroach the subject, watch the fun:<br \/>\n&#8220;Me, I think I&#8217;ll be a nun.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>6<br \/>\nWealth and self-indulgence had<br \/>\nbeen hobbling efforts Robin made<br \/>\nto swell his faith: developing<br \/>\nsome charity, the scary thing<br \/>\nhe hoped for most in groping prayer.<br \/>\nLaughably childish, half aware<br \/>\nthat living means to give things up,<br \/>\nhe still preferred his silver cup<br \/>\nkept full, as if the ale he&#8217;d drink<br \/>\nshould never make the level sink.<br \/>\nThinking of Marian, drinking more<br \/>\nintransigently than before,<br \/>\ncursing when his servant failed<br \/>\nto keep his cup completely filled,<br \/>\nenraged to hear his page repeat<br \/>\nhe&#8217;d just brought out the last of it,<br \/>\nhe yelled and knocked the fellow down,<br \/>\nsaddled his horse and rode to town.<br \/>\nLivid. He didn&#8217;t give a damn<br \/>\nwhat he might do in Nottingham.<\/p>\n<p>7<br \/>\nObviously Robin Hood<br \/>\nfound Justice so disgusting, Good<br \/>\nso downright bad, the Crown so far<br \/>\naway, so busy playing war,<br \/>\nhe doubted courts could outlaw him<br \/>\nand make their dictum take. The whim<br \/>\nof hothead Norman Nottingham<br \/>\ncould never cause a quiver: damn<br \/>\nor pardon him, it hardly made<br \/>\na difference in the drifting shade<br \/>\nof Sherwood. Once he learned the poor<br \/>\nkeep company, how some endure<br \/>\ntheir general lot of penury<br \/>\nwith merriness, hilarity,<br \/>\nhe guessed that his misfortune might<br \/>\nbe Providence unraveled: light<br \/>\nundone in shadow, wonder wound<br \/>\nin dappled overlapping ground<br \/>\nlike mortar in the forest tile<br \/>\nto teach a man too rich to smile.<\/p>\n<p>8<br \/>\nTo set down tales of Little John<br \/>\nrepeating every cheater&#8217;s song,<br \/>\nto give the names as if you knew<br \/>\nthe men he met, pretend a true<br \/>\nintention even when you have<br \/>\nno facts at all, in practice serves<br \/>\nthe wishful thinking legends use<br \/>\nto win an audience to views<br \/>\ncongenial to maniacs<br \/>\nwho call the mob to lawless acts.<br \/>\nThe convent Marian joined became<br \/>\na family home, the family name<br \/>\nquite prominent, anonymously<br \/>\nmentioned here only because<br \/>\nher family&#8217;s papers came to hold<br \/>\nthe convent archives. Finally sold<br \/>\nat auction to a speculator,<br \/>\nrecords of Robin&#8217;s reckless ways<br \/>\nsettled in the Vatican:<br \/>\nhis letters, her memoirs settled in.<\/p>\n<p>9<br \/>\nThese dumbstruck dead can&#8217;t come to term<br \/>\nexcept in papers kept from harm<br \/>\nby sisters with a history<br \/>\nto cherish. No posterity<br \/>\nto worry them: a heritage<br \/>\nfor mothers of another age,<br \/>\nfor daughters also, taught by vows<br \/>\nwhat mastery the chaste espouse.<br \/>\nI read and I repeat the facts:<br \/>\nexplicit or implicit acts,<br \/>\nsome things hinted, some things guessed,<br \/>\nbut nothing invented, nothing suppressed.<br \/>\nI consequently cannot tell<br \/>\nthe usual tales. But you have all<br \/>\nheard wild accounts in childhood, seen<br \/>\nthe movie versions, rude cartoons<br \/>\nand magic-camera agitprop.<br \/>\nYou&#8217;ve put the best on videotape.<br \/>\nWhy insist that my approach<br \/>\nconform to topics normally broached?<\/p>\n<p>10<br \/>\nHearing that his Marian<br \/>\nwas entering a convent, one<br \/>\nwhere sisters kept their visitors<br \/>\noutside the cloister, hiding there<br \/>\nfrom fellowship with relatives,<br \/>\nfrom intercourse with any living<br \/>\nsoul beyond the walls, the earl<br \/>\nhired an outlaw courier.<br \/>\nHe sent a message meant to melt<br \/>\nher anger with the pangs he felt,<br \/>\nconvince her with intensity,<br \/>\nstrike her blind and make her see.<br \/>\nHe bundled it with one thing more:<br \/>\na frozen purple rose that bore<br \/>\nthe scars of fortune, marks that he<br \/>\ninterpreted quite artfully<br \/>\nas bearing more on Marian&#8217;s<br \/>\nemotion than his own. The senseless<br \/>\nseason of unreasoning<br \/>\nreaction must come back to spring.<\/p>\n<p>11<br \/>\nBut if it made a difference kept<br \/>\namong her other manuscripts<br \/>\nI cannot say. I went through every<br \/>\nparticle the archives saved,<br \/>\nthose documents that mock me now,<br \/>\ntheir ordinary porridge sour,<br \/>\nlacking sweetness, lacking spice:<br \/>\nthe good quotidian advice<br \/>\nof mother superiors. Nothing more.<br \/>\nScience must not rely on lore.<br \/>\nI cannot therefore end my tale.<br \/>\nScholarship must always fail<br \/>\nto put\u00a0paid\u00a0or to write\u00a0fini.<br \/>\nHistory and mystery<br \/>\nwill blend until the end of time,<br \/>\na born clich\u00e9, a worn-out rime,<br \/>\nhackneyed as the pack of songs<br \/>\nthe English keep on singing, long<br \/>\nas Robin&#8217;s reign and cobbled up<br \/>\neach day. New verse. 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