“Here shall we see no enemy but winter and rough weather…”

Greetings from South Bend, Indiana!
I’m writing this in my hotel room, exhausted after our first day off since touching down a week ago, full of the famous O’Rourke’s combination of French onion soup and pretzel bites. It’s a different world here than the one we left in London, in terms of both routine and landscape. It’s a balmy -11°C, up from the -20°C we enjoyed earlier this week; I have never seen so much snow or been so cold in my entire life, and my faith in my northern blood being able to withstand extreme cold has been truly shaken. Needless to say this is all a stark contrast from where you, intrepid reader, left off in my last entry – I have plenty to catch you up on.
Firstly, our final few days in London (which, frankly, feel a lifetime ago already). The way that the days leading up to the all-important showing work is we have an AFTLS alum come in to be on book for us – ‘on book’ meaning that while we work through scenes they keep an eye on the script, so if we forget a line we have somebody on hand to remind us of it rather than one of us jumping out of a scene to check the script. We were lucky enough to have the brilliant Anna come in to work with us – I saw Anna’s work in AFTLS’s The Tempest, and as well as being incredibly talented she’s also a wonderfully warm, intelligent, and thoughtful person to have in the room. Annoying, frankly. Not only was she a great reader, but in those final days of tightening and refining she was a vital help in being an experienced outside eye for what we were working on. Act V Scene IV has had roughly four different forms in our rehearsal room thus far – it’s a beast, and without a doubt the hardest scene to stage in the entire play. There are roughly twelve characters on stage at the same time, and those of you good with math(s) will have crunched those numbers and realised there are only five of us in the cast. Trying to seal up a somewhat bizarre ending in a fashion that makes sense, whilst also hitting the emotional beats of the piece, whilst ALSO trying to be three or four characters simultaneously in ways that are as clear, concise, and efficient as possible has been one of the more frustrating challenges of my career thus far – mainly because none of us wanted to choose the easy way out. Yes, we could have character signifiers on chairs as a way of keeping them alive, but we haven’t established the use of chairs anywhere in the play prior to this – why bring them in for the final scene? Yes, we could all stand around in a semi-circle with easy access to the costume pieces we need to change characters as quickly as possible, but is that compelling for an audience to watch? We have to introduce an actual God into the mix, for pity’s sake, no part of this is going to be straight forward. It takes us the majority of an entire day and all six of us working as hard as we possibly can, but we eventually strike the balance of chaos, efficiency, tongue-in-cheek, and grounded emotion that feels like we’re honouring the final moments of a rather special play. Then, naturally, we go into a Charleston. I think Shakespeare would be proud. We have just enough time to get a final run under our belts before we fling open our rehearsal room doors to our first audience of associates and friends.
The sharing was a blur, and while we were happy with some of the more ambitious elements of the show, at its core it galvanised us into focusing back to the basics of acting and conversation – what do the characters want from each other? What are their motivations for speaking? What will happen if they fail to get what they need from the other person? It was adrenaline-fuelled and messy and enthusiastic and spoke volumes to how much we all want so badly to make this not only good, but great. It’s nerve-shredding, to show for the first time this beautiful, brilliant thing that we’ve made together in a room over just about five weeks, but the fear kept us sharp and conscious and alive. We celebrated at the pub after with a few of the brilliant AFTLS associate directors who were kind enough to share their time and expertise, and I stayed far too late considering my hour commute back home to east London and the fact we’re back in the room at 10am the next day for final touch-ups on music, and the all-important packing of the suitcase we have to fit out show inside. We manage this by the grace of whatever Gods were listening to us, and after a light bit of boot rearrangement and tartan scarf Tetris we said our final goodbyes to the Karibou Centre, and the brilliant Francis and Elaine who have taken such wonderful care of us the weeks we’ve been rehearsing there. It is here when it all started to feel a bit Real – the only thing we have to focus on now is packing and getting to Heathrow on time, and there begins the next chapter of this brilliant job.

Our biggest challenge with travel was, mercifully, trying to beat our jet-lag; we were delay-free from Heathrow and managed the whole process safely and smoothly, but the decision to try and stay awake until a reasonable hour in Indiana was harder than I’d thought. It’s unrelenting in the best way, the schedule we’re on here – we were straight back into rehearsals on Monday after landing the day before, and had our first proper introduction to Notre Dame and our fantastic team in America. Cate and Deb have made transitioning into the routine here feel remarkably easy, and getting Scott and Peter’s eyes on our work and having them give us the ‘quarter turn’ it needs to sharpen it into performance-ready shape has been transformative; quite literally, in some cases, as my take on Audrey has completely shifted into something that feels more truthful and interesting whilst still loyal to the interpretation of her that I wanted to bring into this production. The privilege of being able to make contact with so many different characters on this project has blown my mind somewhat – I get to be Rosalind AND Audrey?! I still can’t really believe my luck.

It hasn’t, of course, all been non-stop work, and we’ve been adjusting to campus life pretty well – my voice is a little hoarse still from cheering on the Fighting Irish, at both the women’s basketball and the ice hockey. We’ve been gripped by the playoffs, ransacked our local Trader Joe’s for wine and cheese and ramen nights, even eaten Peruvian-Mexican fusion inside a repurposed church to celebrate Scott’s birthday. That last one gave us one of the biggest laughs of the week so far – me being gobsmacked by a genuine mountain of chicken being placed down in front of Jo, and when (me being me) I started cracking wise about what she’d ordered she informed me she’d asked for the same thing I had. Everything is bigger in America, kids, take it from me. Needless to say, we’re taking advantage of every opportunity that makes itself available to us, and I wouldn’t have it any other way. It’s a huge week next week, with things fully kicking off in earnest – our first classes, our first public performances, our first time showing a paying audience what we’ve been putting our heart and souls into for the last six weeks. Wish us luck – for now, the only opportunity I need to take advantage of is my bed.












